Warm my heart

The weather is cold this morning, it was raining. The sky was dark, the rain kept falling on the front mirror of my car when I was driving. I felt so cold, deep down from my heart. I forced myself to smile, but it was fake. No matter how hard I tried to cover up my sore eyes, it will not go away. This feeling will stay until I solve it. But how am I gonna solve it myself, where I am alone.


I felt much more better after class, where I was at a pub in Midvalley with one bunch of my college buddies. I love the atmosphere there. The joy we were having, the laughters, cigarettes and alcohol warmed my heart. I wish I could step into this pub again with the same bunch of people but not with my mood swing.


Heineken was my first choice, followed by the snake bite. The snake bite is awesome, love it so much. The alcohol I was having not enough to get me drunk. I want to get drunk so badly, so that I can stop thinking about this for some moment. How I wish I could cry it out loud, so that I will feel better.


The greatest moment of the day is I fall sick. I am having fever after I got home, until now. The cold war is still going on. What am I suppose to do now?



I wish I was drunk.